happy birthday ~22nd~

祝我生日快乐，我对自己说。。。
虽然过了整大半个月了，但生日叻，总需要些文字来回忆收藏的！！
今年的生日庆祝，很意外，也算是最多次的一年。。。三次都是惊喜。。。

在Keman Camp的那次，是最早的一次，是12月5号，营火会那一夜，在141人的生日歌声中度过，还是唱足三个版本叻,haha。 这应该算是第二次一大班友人帮我（其实是帮那些十二月的朋友也一起庆祝），蛋糕也是特别的大一个，哈哈。。。

正日那天，以前的朋友及大学朋友都有寄信息向我道贺，反而是我那几个好姐妹却无所表示。。。当时真的有小小的失落，为什么她们会把我的生日给忘了呢？？！！于是，就自我安慰说，一定是忙着收拾行旅，在加上隔天早上三点就要开车去Langkawi，所以就都早早休息了！！我是那种不会刻意去提醒人家今天是我的生日的人，那些记得的朋友，我心存喜悦和感恩！！然而，没想到，在MarryBrown用晚餐时，竟然拿出一粒蛋糕，当时真的感到很意外，也很感动！！而且，她们竟然连礼物也准备好了---Estee Lauder 香水一瓶，当时真的很开心。。。那一霎那，顿时觉得自己有些小人之心了，顿时感到很惭愧！！就是嘛，这么多年的朋友了，怎会把好朋友的生日给忘了呢？！！过后还出乎意料收到可冰送的巧克力讷！！那天真的很高兴，在朋友们的祝福下，在浮罗交怡岛，在欢乐的笑声中，度过愉快的一晚。。。

回到大学的第一天，就跑去谷中城逛街，还相约隔天再去Jusco Balakong 唱K。当时还没察觉到有任何不妥。在GreenBox，发觉小文子她们几个去买面包也未免买的太久了吧，连连点唱了四五首歌都还没回来，就感觉有些诡异了！！破功那一刻，应该是当小秋子她说什么面包蛋糕之类被没收了！！太吵了，听得不很清楚，心里已经开始有些谱了，但会不会时自己自作多情呢？？哈哈。。就在点童话那一刻，荧幕上突然出现“happy birthday”，接着生日歌响起，果然！！虽然是有些小破功，但还是很开心可以一起庆祝生日，她们都还很有我和小慧子的心嘛，嘻嘻！！连这场唱K费用都由她们包办哦！！当时没机会向她们道谢，虽然内心已经在呐喊了很多声谢谢，因为，不晓得为什么，就是讲不出。。。只好用文字来表达我的感动及快乐。。。

谢谢你们咯：美艾，芷微，诗欣，gekiang，LCK，可冰，小文子，小黎子，小爱子，小秋子，小佩子，小慧子和志明。。。

今年收到的礼物：Estee Lauder 香水，巧克力，小文子的《金运招牌 守护之神》灯，小慧子的锁匙圈，小爱子的Lip gloss，和志明的护眼罩（最怪的礼物）。。。

Avatar = 阿凡达

终于开学了 !!??（带点无奈的语气...）但却都好像没什么上课气氛！！昨天刚从家里回来，却还不曾踏入校园（昨天的teksi佬载我绕一圈KKM算不算踏入校园呢？haha），反之却赶去Midvalley shopping。。。嘻嘻

之前就听说阿凡达的口碑不错了，的确，是一个令人耳目一新的题材，赞！！以下是它的故事简介：

故事从地球开始，Jake Sully，是一个双腿瘫痪的老兵，他觉得没有任何东西值得他去战斗，因此他对被派遣去潘多拉星球的采矿公司工作欣然接受。
　 　这个星球上有一种别的地方都没有的矿物元素“unobtanium”，能够吸引人类不远万里来到这里拓荒的原因就是它“unobtanium”将彻底改 变人类的能源产业。但是问题是，资源丰富的潘多拉星球并不适合人类生活，这里的空气对人类致命，本土的动植物都是凶猛的掠食者，极度危险。这里的环境也造 就了与人类不同的种族：10英尺高的蓝色类人生物“Na"vi族”。Na"vi族 不满人类拓荒者的到来，也不喜欢人类的机器在这个星球的土地上因为到处挖矿而留下的斑斑伤痕。
　　由于潘多拉星球环境严酷，人类传统的宇航服、机 甲都不足以保护矿工，于是科学家们转向了clon技术：他们将人类DNA和Na"vi人的DNA结合在一起，制造了一个clon Na"vi人，这个 clon Na"vi 人可以让人类的意识进驻其中，成为人类在这个星球上自由活动的“化身”。然而并不是任何人都可以操纵这个clon Na"vi人，只有DNA与他身上人类DNA 配型相符的人才有这样的能力。
　　Jake Sully的哥哥是这个克隆Na"vi的人类DNA捐献者，他就可以操纵这个克隆Na"vi人，然而他被杀死 了，采矿的公司为了不让砸下去的钱白砸（克隆Na"vi人价格不菲），必须找到一个可以代替他操纵克隆Na"vi的人，这个人的DNA还必须和其配型相 符，于是他们自然就找到了Juke Sally，Juke Sally对此很高兴，因为那意味着他又能走路了。
　　几年后，Juke Sally到了潘多拉星球，他发现这里的美 景简直无法用语言来形容，高达900英尺的参天巨树、星罗棋布飘浮在空中的群山、色彩斑斓充满奇特植物的茂密雨林、晚上各种动植物还会发出光……就如同梦 中的奇幻花园。不过很快他就体验到了这里的危险，一头毒狼（潘多拉星球一种本土生物）与他狭路相逢，眼看就要被吃掉，一支箭射死了毒狼，杰克得救了。救他 的是Na"vi族的一个女孩 Neythiri，Juke Sally 从她口中了解到了更多潘多拉星球的知识。
　　Na"vi族人一直以来都与潘多拉星球的其他物种和谐相处，过着一种简朴天然的生活，Juke Sally在和这个Na"vi女孩的相处过程中逐渐转变了对人类来这里采矿的看法，他意识到他已经找到值得为之战斗的东西了。
　 　不过Juke Sally 如果要加入Na"vi族人对抗人类入侵者的战争，要付出很大的代价：他并不能永远呆在“化身”中，当“化身”——克隆Na"vi人睡觉 时，他就会回到自己半身不遂的人类身体中，只有通过专门的连接设备才能重新回到“化身”中。一旦与自己的同胞为敌，他就失去了与“化身”结合的可能，只能 困在残疾的身体里，并失去那个他越来越喜欢的Na"vi女孩…………然而，最终，他还是选择捍卫那简朴天然的生活，借由艾娃的力量，过自己想要过得生活。。。
《摘自某网站》

观后感：

刚开始看时，还真的觉得Na"vi族人长的很丑很畸形，可是看到最后，发觉，最丑陋的还是贪婪的人类。为了此时此刻的利益，可以不惜代价去摧毁他人的家园！！而Na"vi族人一直在捍卫自己的国土，虽然损失惨重，却誓死抗战到底。。。贪得无厌的人类，最终还是得到报应。。。

残酷的战争，渺小的生命。。。

曾几何时，人类的贪婪，已经陷入无底深渊。。。可悲+无奈


这部戏真的不错，电脑效果处理得不错，看3D的话应该会更加好。（有机会的话！！）

又到了忏悔的时刻。。。

漫漫五个星期的大学假期已经接进尾声了。。。回头想想，自己在这五个星期到底有何做为?!

在上课的日子里，总是埋怨功课为何那么多，这边赶完，那边又有新的，假期怎么还不来。。。然而，就总很喜欢在这种忙碌的时刻，忙里偷闲地追一追连续剧，上上网，尤其FB更是每日上网必到之处！！这种感觉，要怎么形容呢？？嗯，就是很有成就感。。。呵呵。。。而且在忙的当儿，还会很有计划地策划要如何善用有限的假期。。。

终于到了我大学生涯中的最后一个假期了！！时间过得真快，以前以为很遥远的事，现在竟无声无息的来到了眼前！！人生苦短啊！！严格算来，其实我已经一年没有放假了！今年差不多整年都是在熬着大学读书的苦日子。。。时常听到已到社会工作的朋友诉苦说很想回到以前读书的生活，感叹踏入社会工作的压力不是每个人都能承受的！！自己打从心底也这么认为！！在求学期间，除了考试及赶功课的日子属难熬些，其余的都是快乐优哉的闲日子！！只是，人，永远都是生在福中不知福的，往往都要在失去后才后悔。。。很喜欢一句话：体验无常，把握当下。每次说要把握当下，要把握当下，可是要把握当下时，谈何容易。。。至少，对我来说是很不容易的！！

就这次的假期而言，简直就有虚度假期的感觉！！做得最多的是连追两部TVB连续剧，看了几部电影，陪妈妈重看《巾帼枭雄》，时常挂网，跑了几趟KL，去了一场挺不错的生活营，还有即将前往的Langkawi Trip，其余的时间也不晓得要是如何让它飞逝了的。。。每次都是等到这个时候，我一定会很懊悔！为什么不能跟着计划走呢？原本恶补英文的计划就这样泡汤了!! 发现，每次失去生活重心后，很容易迷失自己。。。

几时，我才能找回自己的重心 ???

不幸中的大幸。。。

Finally get my purse back today, after become pendatang asing for almost a week!! Haiz....I know sometimes i really like a big tai tou ha!!! It's all my fault !!

After Keman 12, actually planned to back KL Central by bus provided. But, a committee from Kepong (...I knew his name was Jun Yew during dinner later on =.=''') suddenly offered us to sit his car if we like to do so. Thought of can avoid the crowded KTM, so we just follow his car, with another junior from UKM too.

Before that, JY already promised with his friends to enjoy the famous “Beggar Chicken” in Banting!! Felt a bit uneasy to have meal with strangers (...they all are committees of Keman 12 too, just do not know them well...).
JY seem to have poor sense of direction...We turned and turned, after half and hour more only get to the intended restaurant (in between making several calls to the restaurant to get the right direction but failed, haha).

At there, get to know them better. All of them were uni friends and graduated from UPM. Had a quite interesting talk during the meal time. Ooi is one of them. He already been talkative during the camp. Erm, I mean sporting in asking some special questions. They really have their own point of views to the politic and economy in Malaysia. But, to my surprise, they criticized msia government alots!!! What they did in the camp was just end up there. One Malaysia is a bullshit slogan for them....However, they did exposed me a lots that we do need FACTS & FIFURES to support all the idea we want to convey!!!

After the meal, started our journey back to Kepong by using GPS!! However, finally reach MY's relatives house around 8.30pm. After get all the stuff settled, only found out my purse is gone!! It's not with me !! Fear and panicked!! Luckily after I calmed down, i thought of i might be dropped in JY's car !!

Luckily,after some way round, get the purse back. From this incident, found out I am really a careless person. Like to put things everywhere, and have to try extra efforts to get it back....really a bad habit...should get rid of it as soon as possible....

Keman 12...

三天两夜的Keman 12 终于圆满结束了。之前还想去不去也无所谓，反正营费也还没付。没什么损失。。。还好，最终还是去了！！！没有后悔。。。

在那儿的确学到了很多常识，亲眼目睹很多大人物如魏家祥博士，莫泰熙老师，何国忠博士，Datuk Sri 张天赐，吉隆坡刑事主任邱震华，及两个aktivis（忘了什么名）和Datuk廖中莱，还看到原来外面的世界真的是人才济济。来至全国各地大专生齐聚在Banting Jugra PLKN Camp，一起分享各自的心得。以前还以为会关注时事的大专生是少之又少，怎知，在那发现，原来我们才是属于少数的那部分。他们的眼观独到，私底下做了不少功课与思考，这就是他们与众不同的地方！！一个马来西亚，尤其青年开始，要的就是这种青年！！虽然有时还会上网看看报纸，但仍然对时事是一知半解，较它们比起来，还真的是小巫见大巫了！！以前总是认为只要读好书，做好本份，就已经足够了！！其实不然。很多时候， 就因为我们对时事的漠不关心而导致我们本身甚至下一代的权利被剥夺了仍然不自知。。。到时才来怨天尤人已经来不及了！！！

在这次的生活营当中，深深察觉到，人，是互辅互足的。每个人在不同的时间地点都扮演不同的角色。身为领导者，必须激励追随者往前冲，有必要时还必须配合他们的脚步，让整个计划可以圆满完成。而身为追随者，必须勇于踏出自己的第一步，相信领导者，踌躇只会让整个计划功亏一篑！！当大家同心协力完成共同的目标时，那种满足感真的很大！！

喜欢参加类似的生活营，可以学到东西之余，又可以认识新朋友。虽然大家的交情不会很深，但能够在一个地方相遇，甚至被编进同一组，也可说是一种缘分。有时会在想，大家都是在大学生，为何思想，行为和观点会有如此差距？？无可否认，有些人的大学生活的确多姿多彩，或许是这样让他们的视野开阔了许多！然而，这也曾几何时是我梦想中的大学生活——大家一起搞活动，一起从挫败中成长！但有时还是会感到心有余而力不足，要考虑的因素有太多了。

还有一年半就要从大学生涯踏入社会了，到时所面临的压力会是如何，还真的无法想像。多希望就趁现在努力过生活，从中学习，以后要走的路会比现在来得更艰难。。。

2009 之总回忆录。。。

哎呀呀。。。第三年的第一个学期就这样过完了。。。有点舍不得，因为这意味着不久的将来，将会有很多的朋友离我们而去。。。剩最后一个学期了，要好好把握才行！！


话说回来，今年的两个学期可说是个超多回忆的学期。去了很多的地方，就趁现在来个总回忆吧！！嘻嘻。。


去了最多次的地方就是云顶了。第一次去时还非常巧合的，竟然在巴士站遇到了我们的Coursemates。然而，我们还是各完各的。这是第一次与一班好朋友一起去，室内室外主题乐园都玩了，碰碰车不晓得玩了几遍，室内云霄飞车也完了不少遍！！这一次的云顶之行也是我头一遭踏入云顶赌场（虽然还是被查身份证，有点丢脸。。。）当时，就只有我和小佩子达到了特定年龄，其他人（小文子，小秋子和小慧子）就只能在外目送我们了，哈哈。。。好在有个朋友--光荣陪我和小佩子一同前去，并为我们俩讲解了很多种不同的赌法，让我们大开眼界。。。上云顶吃杯面和吃雪糕似是无可厚非的！！我们果然还是循规蹈矩的跟回了所谓的习俗，嘻嘻。。。还有，我们竟然第一次跑去看半夜场（忘了是看几点的了），结果还看到睡着了，果然是《Bedtimes Stories》，哈哈。。。


第二次的云顶之行是与家人一起前往的，而且还在新年期间。倘若没记错，应该是年初五吧，与大舅一家人，分乘三辆车上去，而且还是天还没亮就开车了呢！由于大多数都是成年人了。所以赌场还是必到之地。那趟云顶之行是当天去当天回的。随后路过国家博物馆，还去参观呢！！想一想，这个国家博物馆只是会出现于小学或中学历史之旅的路线中，现在竟然会旧地重游，真的有点莫名其妙！！之后还去了科学馆呢！


第三次上云顶还真的是说上就上了呢！！那次是帮housemate志明庆祝生日。。。说到志明的生日，像真的是在打水战！！场面真的有够震撼！！刚从槟城回来，一进门，就被几个恶魔用水淋了个像落汤鸡！！好在他是个很能玩的人，再加上笑点低，一切问题都不是问题啦！比方说，之前我们几个恶作剧地录了几款不同的猴子叫声作为他的铃声，他也能一笑置之。反之，他还出乎意料的真的把它当作电话铃声，所以那次的水战他也可以欣然接受。过后，全housemates约了个时间去了The Garden RedBox 唱完K。唱完K后，有人竟然提议不如就直上云顶吧！！我开始以为他们只是说说而已，岂料他们竟然真的跑去Google Map查看路线，然后就大胆的开车上山了。。。上山吹蜡烛，吃蛋糕，吹冷风，闹了一夜，就下山了。。。还记得那天真的玩得很彻底，隔天小文子她们还要来适耕庄，再加上刚好那时我还伤风喉咙痛，一到家后倒头就睡着了。。。第二天早上，一行人就坐巴士来到了适耕庄。吃海鲜，吹海风，唯一的遗憾就是没去到稻田，以为那时已经在烧芭了，就留下次吧！那个周末还真过的有充实有筋疲力尽啊！！


说到庆生，今年的确为很多好朋友庆生，或许，大家都认为是最后一年了，于是，大家多豁出去了！！为何会这样认为呢？！这是回想起今年所有庆生的总结！！哈哈。。。 第一个打头阵的是小秋子。鬼鬼祟祟地跑到她的家，大伙儿躲在小佩子的房里，打算给她一个大惊喜！！果然，虽当中有些小技术上的问题，不过总的来说还是算成功的！！嘻嘻。。。大伙儿闹了一整夜，结果隔天还ponteng早上八点的课，真的是有够疯了啦！！


接着就是小黎子了。去了麦当劳庆祝，而且还是傻傻被我们骗去的，真的是很有趣！！定了她最爱的冰淇淋蛋糕，又循例的作弄她后，还有余兴节目可以观赏——魔术表演！！最令人惊心的是那一场断指表演！！虽然知道那是骗人的障眼法，但第一次见证还真的傻眼叻！！


哎呀，轮到小文子的庆生了。对我来说，小文子的庆生让我有了点小阴影！！哈哈，希望小文子不要太介意啦，毕竟那次的庆生的确让人难忘啊，竟整整庆了一个礼拜！！第一次去吃一顿价值不菲的Tenji Buffet，还被人家“误导”吃生蚝（现在想起那怪怪的味道就觉得很恶心！！）。结果隔天去Balakong Jusco 唱K时，没唱几首歌就头昏脑胀，上吐下泻了不知好几回，真的有够恐怖！！ 或许是因为前一晚有点“暴饮暴食”，再加上那天早上空着肚子喝汽水，之后胃痛作祟，结果导致身体不能负荷，以致脸色苍白，连走几步路都需友人扶助，真的有够惊险！！后来有了热腾腾的粥入肚，才稍微好了些。想起当天看的是新加坡电影《吓到笑》，现在觉得还挺讽刺的，真的吓到笑咯，哈哈。。。然而，祸不单行，隔天又轮到小黎子出事---在地铁里呕吐，可能是饿过头，再加上地铁里缺氧的关系吧！！总而言之，小文子的庆生的确会让我没齿难忘的啦。。。


就这次的意外，让我突然回忆起小薇子的家事！！她也真的是“多灾多难”的，一言难尽！！现在暂且不谈这件事！！回到原题，接着的就是宅男Cyu的生日了。一时忘了他的中文名字怎么写了，是刘仲佑么？？感觉有点怪怪的，就用Cyu好了！！哎呀，做了一年的housemates，全家（不包括他的同居友人）才知道他原来是姓刘而非姓罗，真的非常可笑！！他这人还挺多愁善感的，简直就是爱情至上，是个名副其实的宅男。他属天秤座，原有一副不错看的脸孔，无奈，生活日夜颠倒的他，如今他已离帅哥这一称号渐行渐远了。。。不是我在说风凉话，而是事实的确如此，哈哈！！他的生日，我们还办的真的有点马虎（或许当时他已没那个心情了），就只吹个蛋糕，好像都没怕到几张照！！最有看头的就是丢面粉那一幕，有高人---小爱子，小文子及Monkey 在场，我和小黎子就只需摆好椅子等看戏咯，嘻嘻。。。我们俩向来都是与世无争的，哈哈（有点心虚。。。应该这样说，反正都有高人在场，我们俩就干脆等着看戏算啦，嘻嘻）宅男一人哪是他们三人的对手，只得被喷的满脸是粉，一瞬间由小伙子变成了糟老头，相当狼狈！！尤其是那两个女的，还真的没半点儿手下留情，由此可见他们之间的恩怨是如此的“深”呵。。。其实这也还是个小case，听说之后UO gang 那班更加的狼，又是蛋糕，又是冰淇淋，又是水的，这才叫心狠手辣哦，哇哈哈！！！


小黎子的庆生是在上学期的Study Week 提早办的，小薇子的则是在这次的Study Week 预先庆祝了。大伙儿去了MetroPoint 的BBQ Chicken一起吃大餐。小薇子也是懵懵懂懂的被骗去的，当我们唱生日歌时，她也跟着一起唱，完全还不知是怎么的一回事！！这意味着我们的计划成功的，很有成就感！！这才像是策划一个生日会嘛，看到当事人被蒙在鼓里的那副模样，随后一脸惊喜的样子，感觉真的很好！！


小爱子的生日会，也是提早很多，事关大家之后都回忙于考试，抽不出时间来了，只好提早在某个周末咯。原先是定于某星期五晚的，怎知她竟然被友人拉去参加MyFM DJ 面试，而且星期五上午就会出门，直到隔天才回来！！虽然有些措手不及，但最终还是能顺利瞒天过海。一起享用完意大利面，大战就开始了！！之前做好的薯泥竟被当作攻击武器！原先是小文子与两个男生的恩怨，后来不知怎的，小爱子也加入战争中。。。薯泥被丢得到处都是，地上墙上都有！一向爱好和平的小黎子和我则乖乖地洗碗，以为只要置身事外，就可以永保安康了，怎知最终还是殃及池鱼，无辜被连累！！被这突如其来的攻击，基于前无去路，后无退路，我无力反抗，只能在原地尖叫。反之，小黎子还来得及反击，舀了一勺水直接喷向“敌方”，当场吓呆了所有的人。经过一番搏斗，整间家一片凌乱。也许是时候该来个大扫除了吧，haha。。。现在回想起，还真的有家暴的感觉！！！


在考最后第二张时，被housemates邀约一起为邻居—义俊庆祝生日！！那场庆生会开始时大家还算规规矩矩的赤着冰淇淋蛋糕，后来小爱子与小文子突然兴起，竟玩起cream来，Cream大战开打了！！看到听到友人们边逃边喊，是个很惊心的场面。。。还好我已经事先声明明早还要考试，再加上我也不是什麽好惹的，洗完碟子后，就赶快到离现场，“幸运”地逃过一劫！结果，最后还闹到楼下邻居上来发威！虽然这也不是第一次了，但那时才大约十时多，还不至于扰人清梦吧，真的以为我们学生好欺负吗？！


熬完难捱的期终考，一起相约去小秋子和小佩子的家乡加亨游玩！！因想起小佩子的生日将至，就打算也一并提早在她的家乡帮她庆祝吧!! 曾一时口快，差点露出马脚，被其它友人发现了。大家都在猜测主角有听出来吗？！然而，还好小佩子是属于后知后觉的，实属不幸中的大幸，否则后果真的不堪设想！由于事前没时间做任何准备，所以一到小秋子的家，大家就抓紧时间做生日卡！虽然那卡是临时赶出来的，但却诚意与创意一百分呢！！那天的生日惊喜真的让小佩子大感意外，无奈只是有了两个小遗憾！！第一个遗憾是，原本定的是冰淇淋蛋糕，怎知后来竟变成是芋头蛋糕！没关系啦，用手吃着冰冰的芋头蛋糕（因事前以为是冰淇淋蛋糕嘛，结果就放进冰箱冷藏了！），假想它为冰淇淋蛋糕，味道也挺不错的！！第二个遗憾，是“终生遗憾”不见了！！当时，是我把它放在墙旁的。大伙儿拍完照，吃完蛋糕，从阳台走进了房间后就忘了它的存在，让它日晒雨淋了！！不晓得最后小秋子是否用找到它，让它物归原主？！
还有一桩，那就是国家动物园与黑风洞一日游！这也是一时即兴的周末活动，马六甲没去成，却换来了KL 一日游，还ok啦！！与各种各样的动物合照了不少照片，就当做纪念咯，再重游此地的日子恐怕不晓得是何年何日了！！


就让这些回忆陪着我们，走我们要走的路。。。

小收获！

考试的日子真难熬啊！！考了一个礼拜，只解决了两科，而且还感觉考到不是很理想的两科！！真糟糕！！很没心情要看书，思想一直在飘呀飘！！都不懂为何会这样！！

终于做了最后的决定。还是去了。犹豫了整一个礼拜，基于考试的压力，就暂且搁在一旁。再来就是想找个人一起去，比较没酱怕，哈哈。。。原本想邀小文一起去的，但她好像没什么兴趣，有想过就酱算了吧，还是乖乖呆在家吧！可是心还是痒痒的，在最后关头让我想起了茗莺。可能是射手座的关系，我们真的是一拍即合，谈了不久就达成协议了！好兴奋！！其实有发现我们俩还真的蛮合得来的，是同星座的关系吗？！ 算一算我以前没什么射手座的朋友，要算也只有LCK咯。怎知到了大学射手座的人还真多的叻！！一起闹着玩的都已经有三个了（算上我自己啦）。。。以前都没想过这种什么什么星座的，可能是被我家的神婆小黎子分析多了，自己偶尔也会朝这方面去看东西！！嘻嘻

昨天无聊打电话回家，顺便想跟妈妈说声我想去参加全国大专领袖训练营。其实有猜到妈妈可能会不让我去的，因为她总是认为，一个女生最好还是别到处跑，外边有太多的的坏人与意外。我知道她是比较杞人忧天的，有的也担心，没的也担心。已经跟她说了不好再这样下去，她还是个老样子。。。不过还好，有个朋友陪我一起去，她也比较放心啦！！

后来，我发现现在只有她一个人在家，小弟去了云顶玩了，可以感觉她一个人在家真的有点无聊。 自从爸爸不在后，真的有开始想到，以后可能就只剩妈妈一个人在家了。虽然小弟还是整天往外跑，但至少让她有机会唠叨唠叨几句，也不至于整间家死气沉沉的。。现在还说有个小弟在家，以后当他也必须出去了，就真的只剩妈妈了。。。或许应该养成常打电话回家的习惯，让她可以觉得我们都常在！！！好吧，就这样决定！！

Study Week...

Finally it’s study time!! Huh!! Wonder if study week is really for studying or relaxing?!! Found out most of us were those who happy go lucky for the whole sem then struggling in study week!!! really shame of it...Actually I promised to myself that I won't repeat this irresponsible action again at the beginning of the sem, but after all, I am doing so during this sem...

This sem is really a tough sem--- tons of assignments, especially the scaring Database Development!!! Oh my God, that's really a nightmare for me!! What is the logic that an accountant should develop a database?! Attend to SMPK class for the whole sem, and I found out I learn nothing!!! Dreadful....Burn the midnight oil and did nothing!! However, since the project carries 30% , tons of effort was putting on it and I hope we get what we deserve at the end...

AA is another nightmare!! First time.... For the first time, I care no a whit for the AA result!! I know the result was terrible and tried not to get to know anything abt it...Actually I know that I cant accept the result and I know I was just escaping...But I really put lots effort towards it, how come the result was so disappointed??!! I tried very hard to get to know the lecture, but....maybe it showed to me that I will not be a good acquirer in the future...(and I do not have such intent before too). By the way, one thing that relieved me was the presentation!! We get compliment from Dr.Zaleha...Really do not know what she wants actually!! When we held discussion together with her, she complaint that our points were just same with what we discussed with her before...But then, during presentation, she praised us for putting a lots of our own ideas in it... OMG....haiz...Whatever, as long as she satisfied, then all will be done!!!

Erm, as for audit, what should I said about it??!! Lecturer?? He is a good auditor (as least I think so), but not really a good lecturer...He told us his experiences during his career life but, most of his stories were "tergantung"....=.=''' Maybe that's why I cant make up my mind to listen to him for the next time...however, really felt guilty and regret at this moment that I missed out many important lectures the while sem!!!

Okay, back to the main topic---Study Week!! Everytime when I really make up my mind to study, it only can sustain for a few hours in a day, then the rest of the day I got nothing... absentminded i think....what can I do?? Haven touch all the subjects at all....don't know what will happen to me ....

Rushing For ???

Run out of time....seem like having too many things to do and the time is not enough...
No mood to study, although mid sem is around the corner...

H1N1 is getting serious...UUM and USM were closed for a week last few weeks ago. As for UKM, there's a rumour saying UKM will be closed after convo, either on coming Wednesday or Friday. Mostly people wearing masks when walking along the streets or in the bus nowadays.

If the closing of UKM does not cut off our study week for the final, i do really hope it will be closed!! UUM and UM having holidays now, but why not for UKM??!! Why is it so unfair?? WHY UKM having less holidays than others Uni !!! Doshite?!?! OMG!!!

I didn't mean anything, just want to have a short rest !!! I found out I slept around 2am recently, sometimes even 3am---rushing assignments!! although i also facebook-ing sometimes,hehe , but it was to relax my mind after some hard work (I hope it's not an excuse!!) !! No entertainmeant and no movies for few weeks already...really hope can rest my mind for a while...

Sometimes I wonder if I give myself too much stress?? Why others can be so steady in their studies?! but i hope i can do my best in everything although i know somethings is out of my strength...this makes my mood become moody sometimes...just like what being right now, getting lost in direction, nervous....


I found out myself is trying to escape from things that i do not familiar with...

单纯只是想想。。。

很久没有在这留下心情日记了。。。忙于赶功课。。。开始担心+ 害怕，我这个学期的周末就要在赶功课中度过吗？！！真的是超压力的，完全没有喘气的空间，就只为赶而赶。。。茫然...

但很庆幸的可以忙里偷闲，去了国家动物园及黑风洞走走。马六甲没去成，反而还来个吉隆坡一日游，还挺不错的！！在动物园里，走了整个下午，看了整个下午，玩了整个下午，也拍了整个下午，哈哈！！犹记得离上一回去动物园已经有整十年了吧（如没记错应该是三年级去过一次），印象最深刻的就是海狮表演！！如今重温这一幕，感觉很好，又回到去童年的滋味。。。还记得我们一会儿在那儿“哇。。哇。。哇”个不停，一会儿大声拍手，兴奋得像个大小孩。。。

在观看海狮表演的那霎那，突然有个怪念头！！海狮会为了可以吃到鱼儿而尽力做最好的表演，我们人类何尝也不是？！每个生物是为达到目标而生存，抑或是为生存定下目标？！前者是被动的，就只为了目标，可以完全不理会别人的看法与感受。。。后者也许是主动的，为了不让生命留白，给自己有个目标，努力奋斗，但久而久之，也会成为前者，不是吗？？

我的目标又是什么呢？其实还没真正的去想过。不久前，须奈子问了我们类似这样的问题。。。当时我才有点恍然大悟，为何自己从没想给自己定下长远的目标！！当时我给的回答是，带妈妈去到处旅行。。。这个想法只一直都存在的，因为妈妈为我们付出太多了，唯一可以报答她就是好好孝尽她，带她去看看外面的世界。。。然而，还是觉得需要有另一个比较实际的目标，来使岛这个目标可以达成！！但是，我目前的目标就不外乎是希望每个学期的成绩可以3.5 以上。。。这根本算什么目标呢？！看来，闲来无事做时，应该好好想一想了。。。

总会听见有人会说：多希望可以无忧无虑的过日子（包括我自己），但有没有想过，“无忧无虑”也是一个目标！要达到这个目标，谈何容易？！又在想，人类为何不能心灵相通，这样大家都知道其他人的想法，不必费神去弄个所以然来，这样也许就会少了很多不必要的猜测。。。然而，但大家都心灵相通了，会不会更容易引起纠纷呢？又开始矛盾了。。。人啊，总是在矛盾中一直矛盾下去。。。

Hi, Japanese....

I go to Japanese Class today, the first Japanese lesson in my life....

Actually thought of taking a foreign language in university long long time ago, but then my original timetable made me headache every semester and I cant even have sufficient time for other subjects...Maybe it's only an excuse and I didn't take any effort to achieve it....

It's a circumstances that I will register to this Japanese course. Planned to take French before as my dream country is France. But then heard that it's quite hard for it and just give up...haha...Never think of taking Japanese before because i do not like to watch Japanese drama and think of this language is just so common (i feel sorry i got such kind of thinking,haha ).

My first Japanese Drama was "One Litre Tears" , in UKM...Followed by " Code Blue", "Bloody Monday" and 《亡者之声》...and I cant even believe I will be taking Japanese in future!!!

AR wishes to take Japanese long time ago, and this semester she finally takes it successfully....I am able to take and learn Japanese, the one that I should thanks for is AR. She was so excited and went through UKM Smpweb several times in a day...She was so enthusiasm to help me registering the Japanese when there's 3 places last night!!! If is not her, I think I wont be there for Japanese....

Today is actually a nice day to sleep till afternoon, because it's a raining day...freezing!!! But since I already register, I should go and see what's going on!! I late for the class today after searching the bs4 for so long....I went into bs4 and found out it's Arabic Class...What a shock and I don't know whom should I ask...Then I tried my luck by going to bt4...Luckily my instinct was correct....hehe

It's Nezu Sensee...She is a nice teacher...She really an ideal Japanese woman...She is so cute when she want to explain the term in the language we know but she cant really can speak English properly....We were like 鸡同鸭讲 in the class....But she just smile and try her best to understand us....

Most of them in the class already know Hiragana...I really very blur and don't know how to see the words...feel nervous also as I don't know anyone in the class and don't know how to spell the words out when asked by Sensee...

Luckily, CP is going to take Japanese with me,then we can go class together... It's an unfortunately that SV & YP cant take it with us....but dont worry, we can teach you after we learn it...hehe..

无奈的星期。。。

好“烦忙”的的一个星期！！这个学期要报读的科目还没有确定，再加上kIz Gathering又搞得不上不下，真的很头痛！！！好在这个星期可以悠闲悠闲呆在家里，充充电，让自己做好心理准备去迎接以后毫无预警的日子。。。

最终还是摆脱不了Aini, 还是得去上她的课。当她知道我们这一群人的所作所为时，或许会针对我们几个，但逼于无奈，还是得硬着头皮去。。。现在也只能希望她不要那么记仇，唉！！就让我们平平安安 ，顺顺利利过完这个学期吧！！

至于IB，真的也觉得很无奈。。。明明是拿到好老师，但却基于我们属于少数人，而被迫换班！！而且还是由Radzuan来把我们随便放进某一班！！结果，我们几个被丢进Noreha的班，小佩子和小黎姿却被分到第五班。。。事情到了这个地步，已经没有挽回的余地了，不能上诉，只能找朋友倾诉。。。

Noreha 的教学方式我自认是听不进去也听不懂 (上回已有了Macro的经验了 )，现在也不晓得还能怎样？！听说她的功课也是超多的，这个学期只有茫忙盲了。。。惨 :-(

还有那个Killer（教Perakaunan Sektor Awam），更加恐怖。。。竟然是个提倡无书主义者！他以为我们每个都像他一样博学多才，不用读书就能博古通今！！哎呀，我们是有自知之明的，自问肚里的墨水不够！！或许是因为这个科目太时事化了，根本就没有一本书是可以完全囊括它的范围，也可能作者会以自己的角度出发，以致我们会被他限于一个框框内，但也不至于叫我们不要去看书吧。。。没有任何 Input, 你哪来的Output哦？？！！只是空讲，我们学生的记忆也是有限的，那到时我们拿什么去考试？！

最后还是Audit老师好商量，同意让大伙儿换时间，大家不用在星期五晚上上课了，真好！！原来他是一个Auditor（应该吧？！）。那晚他应该是放工后直接来教书的吧！看到他双眼布满血丝，一脸疲惫的样子，就感觉这份工的薪水不是酱容易拿的。。。压力大，工作量也大，就连睡眠时间也要被牺牲掉！！！！他让我觉得，到了社会还要面对各式各样的人，各种尔虞我诈，各种不择手段，各种勾心斗角，各种人情冷暖，感觉真的有点活受罪！！人，一定会遇到这些遭遇吗？？有没有人逃过这些劫？！看了《巾帼枭雄》，有一句话很值得去省思：人生有多少个十年？做人一定要痛快。。。但是所谓的痛快，要以行动去证明与履行，还真的有点难（是很难！）！！要我一辈子做工作的奴隶，我会很不甘心！！但无可否认，我还是害怕改变。。。自己的命运最终还是在自己手上，如何走下去，还是由你这个主人来决定！！是时候去想想自己要的未来是怎样的了！！

大薇突然告诉我小琳子和小慧子临时决定不去马六甲了！！本来一场高高兴兴的旅游，从原本的15 个人，到现在的八个人，感觉有点扫兴！！为什么大家就不能拨出一点时间让大家聚一聚，明明约好了，却可以临时反悔，很没有责任感！！现在的情况是只有几个人知道，倘若告诉了其他人，相信人数又会再减少了！！到头来，就像是我们几个自己主办的旅游了。。。

人数不会再增加了，只会再减少（希望这不会发生）！！无论如何，这次的游记还是得继续下去，希望不要再出现任何变数了！！

The Sekinchan Trip .....

Finally brought my UKM friends visited my hometown...it's planned long long time ago...and it came true...GREAT !!!

It's the first time for me to be a tourist guide, hope that I never disappointed them...Actually there's nothing much to see in a small town like Sekinchan, just some paddy fields and seafood as the attraction....But unlucky, they all cant view the panorama of paddy fields because they being harvested and burned last month... never mind, can come again next time...

One thing i felt sorry for them is that mostly the seafood is so hot and spicy...Already asked the chef to make them less spicy but then, still were too hot for them...maybe it's the style of my hometown, haha....And I think it's the first time we attacked by lots of mosquitoes during our dinner at the restaurant near the seaside...An unforgettable memory...

We went to Bagan Tengkorak to watch the sunset...at there, we did a lots of crazy poses...it's very funny and we did have a good time for it...I think this is the first time they went to a fish village surrounded by sea...therefore, no wonder they took so many pictures for it, haha..

Another interesting event was eating the xia gu!! All of them except CP never seen and eat xia gu before...and to my surprise, they described it as cockroach and caterpillar!!! Oh my God...It's actually one kind of prawn OK...haha...now they all learned how to peel the xia gu...

Hope they really enjoyed the trip and have a nice memory for it....

Yeah, Mission Complete!!!

Unlucky Start !!!

Don't know why, starting feel that this semester wont be so smooth...getting mostly the sets that are not really good and the subjects getting tougher and tougher!!!
(This sentences was written on the first week of university re-open!!)

And today (second week), it proves!!! Haiz...

Firstly is SP class...that En.Jumaat really a killer!! In my opinion, he is an overbearing lecturer!! He thought he knows all the things and did not want to listen to others!! Why got such a lecturer in this UKM & in this world???!! It's true that there's a lots of technical problems occurred when registering this SP course, we did went to the class last week, just there's nobody in the class, therefore we left... But he was very stubborn and insisted that he only saw a student in the class...Another thing upset me was that he as a lecturer even dare to curse a student who did not attend his class!!! what a suck manner!!! why a lecturer can act like that??!!! after that he even cursed us so that we all get C & D in SP since he will be doing the exam paper!! I really think his ethic has a big problem!!!

Secondly is Audit class...suddenly we being informed that our lecturer is a part-time lecturer and the class will be held on Friday night!!! Oh my goodness, why is Friday night?!! I still can accept if it's one of the weekday night!!! I think most of them agree with me!! But we cant do anything right now,just have to wait for the coming class...hopefully the lecturer will change the time...if not, all of us cant go home during this semester :-

Thirdly is SMPK 2...haiz, really very unlucky this semester, get Aini set again!! How come?? Try to change to other set, but then afraid if fail to do so, Aini will have prejudice to us, then we all die straight away!!!! Hence, the last choice is that we have to drop this course and pray that Dr. Zaher can manually register our names into his set!!! If not, no choice, will have to take it next sem!!!

Conclusion is that I feel that I really have a bad luck for this sem...May God Bless me...

SienzZz。。。

Today is the last day of my holiday!! Not really enjoy it much...got too many things to be busy...

Just back from grandma's house on Monday, then accompany Boon went to Inti College on Wednesday. Friday is the day 7 of grandma,hence went to grandma's house to pray for her!! Today is Saturday, have to appreciate the time left...

A new semester is coming, hope everything will be going well...

阿弥陀佛。。。

星期四一回到家，就听弟弟说外婆病得很重了，恐怕不行了。。。前几天才病得很重，靠妈妈及其兄弟姐妹驻念才勉强把外婆从鬼门关拉回来。当时听到这个消息时，真的吓了一跳！！！虽然知道外婆的身子因为胆结石而消瘦了不少，但还不至于到如此严重的地步。。。

当晚就去了外婆家，舅舅们已经在她身旁为她驻念佛号。惊见她那瘦骨如材的模样，真令人吓呆以及感到心痛。。。还记得最后一次见到她时在母亲节时。那时她已经比以前瘦很多了，身体已大不如前，但至少还可以自己走动！现在却只可以躺在那儿，神志已经不清了，痛苦地轻声呻吟。。。

喊了她几声，但她却没认出我来，很辛酸！！她的一切举止，她所经历着的痛，不是我们可以理解的！！令在旁的我们看了都忍不住掉泪！知道她到可以往生去西方极乐世界。。。小姨一直坚信念佛号可以减轻外婆的痛苦。。于是从那天起，我们就轮流为外婆念佛号，不分日夜！！

星期五下午四时，师傅过来为外婆把脉，证实当时她的脉搏已经停止了，命不久矣，或许只剩几个小时至一天的时间！师傅过后为外婆念咒语加持，并为我们讲解了很多佛理。。。我们家还蛮保守的，本来不相信佛法的，但外婆却因为受到小姨的熏陶而在一个渔村里吃素念佛！！家人虽然反对，但还是尊重她老人家的意思。。。经历了外婆当时不乐观的情况，大舅与小舅已经开始慢慢接受佛法，可以侍候在外婆旁为她念佛号，希望籍此减轻她的痛苦！当大家为了外婆，一起大声念佛号时，场面真的很壮观，也很感动。。。

外婆生前与成发医师（即佛教总长-李会长）非常要好，千吩咐万吩咐他希望以佛教仪式完成她的心愿，而李会长也一一答应她的要求。。

小姨总是说外婆肯定前世重了很多善缘，今世才得以去西方极乐世界坐佛菩萨渡众生！！以前每次听小姨说念佛后往生的人必定能去西方极乐世界。往生后身体是软软的，面目是很慈祥的！！曾经有怀疑过这一切都是小姨为了让我们能诚信念佛而编出来的！！现在，外婆往生了，也让我们见证了这一切。。。

家人曾在其间，因不忍见外婆承受的痛苦，还大吵一场。。。还好有佛号加持，最终大家还是放下成见，专心为外婆驻念。。。李会长扬言，佛祖一定会选个好时间带外婆去成佛！！就在星期六午夜正十二时，外婆往生了！！阿弥陀佛。。

外婆一往生，我们立刻为她驻念十二个小时。。。过后为她更衣时，她的身体是完全软软的，而且，嘴巴时微笑着的！！最明显的是外婆的眉毛。。。外婆的头发与眉毛是全白的，但在我们驻念间，她的眉毛竟然长出黑色的眉毛。。。最令人不可思议的是，出殡当天，她的鼻梁高挺，像足了阿弥陀佛。。。

外婆的葬礼完全是适宜佛教仪式进行！！这也是渔村里头一桩！！外婆一个人在渔村里吃斋念佛放生，实在令人进叹不已！！小姨说外婆是佛祖派来这二渡众生的，让众生与佛法结缘，功德无量。。。在驻念期间，除了我们自家人在念佛号，佛教会的同仁也来为她驻念，这都是她所积的福报。仪式期间，佛号不曾间断，直到她出殡当天。

外婆这次往生，的确让我们对佛教改观了很多。大家现在都能接受佛法，每天为外婆念佛，希望能帮她连品高升，成佛后能渡一切众生！！

Fearfulness Friday

In this wonderful morning, we went to Dr. Azimon’s room to take our nasi lemak. She’s really a kind person, likes to sermonize us…she did talk a lots of how to become a good man in future and some of the unpleasant matters or incidents that impressed her, which she met recently (or years ago)!! She’s such has a heart of gold, easily affected by others’ actions…

Today, she gave an astonishing statement to SV and me: are we twins??!! What an incredible thought?! Actually I don’t think we have much similarities between us, despite of our hair style, wearing spectacles, same height (SV insists that she’s higher 1cm than me, haiz!!), mix around always and that’s all!!! But don’t know why, do have some people keep saying we look alike…Moreover, some even claimed that I looked younger than SV…CP and others suppose I should happy for I am looking younger than my actual age, but I don’t really think so…Just don’t know why, feeling weird about it…

I agree that I really wish if I have any elder siblings. Maybe I am that kinds of scared of taking responsibilities, have to make all the decisions myself!! But, I always think that I am quite a lucky one, having three brothers that mature enough (except for the last one sometimes, and hopefully he will be as the others in the future…) that do “guide” me along my path till now…

After taking our breakfast, three of us, CP, SV and me went to The Mines. I think we are really fearfulness…exam is just around the corner, but we still have mood to go shopping!! Law has lots of things need to be memorized, ethic haven’t start reading and Kepimpinan is just so so…However, we had made a promise before we go--- won’t spend money on any unnecessary things and surprisingly, we made it, hahaha!!!

Finally, we got to watch the “Museum AT the Night 2” today…it’s a funny story especially the two Cappunci monkeys…Actually we planned this when going to Midvalley few weeks ago, but due to Saturday, we can’t wait for the long queue. After that, we were busy with all the assignments. Then it drags us till now.

One thing that i felt sorry for SV was that I scorched the red bean!!! I have a short memory and it's really gets on my nerves sometimes...I am figuring a way to improve it...