Rushing For ???

Run out of time....seem like having too many things to do and the time is not enough...
No mood to study, although mid sem is around the corner...

H1N1 is getting serious...UUM and USM were closed for a week last few weeks ago. As for UKM, there's a rumour saying UKM will be closed after convo, either on coming Wednesday or Friday. Mostly people wearing masks when walking along the streets or in the bus nowadays.

If the closing of UKM does not cut off our study week for the final, i do really hope it will be closed!! UUM and UM having holidays now, but why not for UKM??!! Why is it so unfair?? WHY UKM having less holidays than others Uni !!! Doshite?!?! OMG!!!

I didn't mean anything, just want to have a short rest !!! I found out I slept around 2am recently, sometimes even 3am---rushing assignments!! although i also facebook-ing sometimes,hehe , but it was to relax my mind after some hard work (I hope it's not an excuse!!) !! No entertainmeant and no movies for few weeks already...really hope can rest my mind for a while...

Sometimes I wonder if I give myself too much stress?? Why others can be so steady in their studies?! but i hope i can do my best in everything although i know somethings is out of my strength...this makes my mood become moody sometimes...just like what being right now, getting lost in direction, nervous....


I found out myself is trying to escape from things that i do not familiar with...

单纯只是想想。。。

很久没有在这留下心情日记了。。。忙于赶功课。。。开始担心+ 害怕，我这个学期的周末就要在赶功课中度过吗？！！真的是超压力的，完全没有喘气的空间，就只为赶而赶。。。茫然...

但很庆幸的可以忙里偷闲，去了国家动物园及黑风洞走走。马六甲没去成，反而还来个吉隆坡一日游，还挺不错的！！在动物园里，走了整个下午，看了整个下午，玩了整个下午，也拍了整个下午，哈哈！！犹记得离上一回去动物园已经有整十年了吧（如没记错应该是三年级去过一次），印象最深刻的就是海狮表演！！如今重温这一幕，感觉很好，又回到去童年的滋味。。。还记得我们一会儿在那儿“哇。。哇。。哇”个不停，一会儿大声拍手，兴奋得像个大小孩。。。

在观看海狮表演的那霎那，突然有个怪念头！！海狮会为了可以吃到鱼儿而尽力做最好的表演，我们人类何尝也不是？！每个生物是为达到目标而生存，抑或是为生存定下目标？！前者是被动的，就只为了目标，可以完全不理会别人的看法与感受。。。后者也许是主动的，为了不让生命留白，给自己有个目标，努力奋斗，但久而久之，也会成为前者，不是吗？？

我的目标又是什么呢？其实还没真正的去想过。不久前，须奈子问了我们类似这样的问题。。。当时我才有点恍然大悟，为何自己从没想给自己定下长远的目标！！当时我给的回答是，带妈妈去到处旅行。。。这个想法只一直都存在的，因为妈妈为我们付出太多了，唯一可以报答她就是好好孝尽她，带她去看看外面的世界。。。然而，还是觉得需要有另一个比较实际的目标，来使岛这个目标可以达成！！但是，我目前的目标就不外乎是希望每个学期的成绩可以3.5 以上。。。这根本算什么目标呢？！看来，闲来无事做时，应该好好想一想了。。。

总会听见有人会说：多希望可以无忧无虑的过日子（包括我自己），但有没有想过，“无忧无虑”也是一个目标！要达到这个目标，谈何容易？！又在想，人类为何不能心灵相通，这样大家都知道其他人的想法，不必费神去弄个所以然来，这样也许就会少了很多不必要的猜测。。。然而，但大家都心灵相通了，会不会更容易引起纠纷呢？又开始矛盾了。。。人啊，总是在矛盾中一直矛盾下去。。。