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Friday, April 8, 2011
四年大学生涯点滴
Monday, December 14, 2009
又到了忏悔的时刻。。。
在上课的日子里,总是埋怨功课为何那么多,这边赶完,那边又有新的,假期怎么还不来。。。然而,就总很喜欢在这种忙碌的时刻,忙里偷闲地追一追连续剧,上上网,尤其FB更是每日上网必到之处!!这种感觉,要怎么形容呢??嗯,就是很有成就感。。。呵呵。。。而且在忙的当儿,还会很有计划地策划要如何善用有限的假期。。。
终于到了我大学生涯中的最后一个假期了!!时间过得真快,以前以为很遥远的事,现在竟无声无息的来到了眼前!!人生苦短啊!!严格算来,其实我已经一年没有放假了!今年差不多整年都是在熬着大学读书的苦日子。。。时常听到已到社会工作的朋友诉苦说很想回到以前读书的生活,感叹踏入社会工作的压力不是每个人都能承受的!!自己打从心底也这么认为!!在求学期间,除了考试及赶功课的日子属难熬些,其余的都是快乐优哉的闲日子!!只是,人,永远都是生在福中不知福的,往往都要在失去后才后悔。。。很喜欢一句话:体验无常,把握当下。每次说要把握当下,要把握当下,可是要把握当下时,谈何容易。。。至少,对我来说是很不容易的!!
就这次的假期而言,简直就有虚度假期的感觉!!做得最多的是连追两部TVB连续剧,看了几部电影,陪妈妈重看《巾帼枭雄》,时常挂网,跑了几趟KL,去了一场挺不错的生活营,还有即将前往的Langkawi Trip,其余的时间也不晓得要是如何让它飞逝了的。。。每次都是等到这个时候,我一定会很懊悔!为什么不能跟着计划走呢?原本恶补英文的计划就这样泡汤了!! 发现,每次失去生活重心后,很容易迷失自己。。。
几时,我才能找回自己的重心 ???
Friday, October 16, 2009
Study Week...
Finally it’s study time!! Huh!! Wonder if study week is really for studying or relaxing?!! Found out most of us were those who happy go lucky for the whole sem then struggling in study week!!! really shame of it...Actually I promised to myself that I won't repeat this irresponsible action again at the beginning of the sem, but after all, I am doing so during this sem...
This sem is really a tough sem--- tons of assignments, especially the scaring Database Development!!! Oh my God, that's really a nightmare for me!! What is the logic that an accountant should develop a database?! Attend to SMPK class for the whole sem, and I found out I learn nothing!!! Dreadful....Burn the midnight oil and did nothing!! However, since the project carries 30% , tons of effort was putting on it and I hope we get what we deserve at the end...
AA is another nightmare!! First time.... For the first time, I care no a whit for the AA result!! I know the result was terrible and tried not to get to know anything abt it...Actually I know that I cant accept the result and I know I was just escaping...But I really put lots effort towards it, how come the result was so disappointed??!! I tried very hard to get to know the lecture, but....maybe it showed to me that I will not be a good acquirer in the future...(and I do not have such intent before too). By the way, one thing that relieved me was the presentation!! We get compliment from Dr.Zaleha...Really do not know what she wants actually!! When we held discussion together with her, she complaint that our points were just same with what we discussed with her before...But then, during presentation, she praised us for putting a lots of our own ideas in it... OMG....haiz...Whatever, as long as she satisfied, then all will be done!!!
Erm, as for audit, what should I said about it??!! Lecturer?? He is a good auditor (as least I think so), but not really a good lecturer...He told us his experiences during his career life but, most of his stories were "tergantung"....=.=''' Maybe that's why I cant make up my mind to listen to him for the next time...however, really felt guilty and regret at this moment that I missed out many important lectures the while sem!!!
Okay, back to the main topic---Study Week!! Everytime when I really make up my mind to study, it only can sustain for a few hours in a day, then the rest of the day I got nothing... absentminded i think....what can I do?? Haven touch all the subjects at all....don't know what will happen to me ....
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Rushing For ???
No mood to study, although mid sem is around the corner...
H1N1 is getting serious...UUM and USM were closed for a week last few weeks ago. As for UKM, there's a rumour saying UKM will be closed after convo, either on coming Wednesday or Friday. Mostly people wearing masks when walking along the streets or in the bus nowadays.
If the closing of UKM does not cut off our study week for the final, i do really hope it will be closed!! UUM and UM having holidays now, but why not for UKM??!! Why is it so unfair?? WHY UKM having less holidays than others Uni !!! Doshite?!?! OMG!!!
I didn't mean anything, just want to have a short rest !!! I found out I slept around 2am recently, sometimes even 3am---rushing assignments!! although i also facebook-ing sometimes,hehe , but it was to relax my mind after some hard work (I hope it's not an excuse!!) !! No entertainmeant and no movies for few weeks already...really hope can rest my mind for a while...
Sometimes I wonder if I give myself too much stress?? Why others can be so steady in their studies?! but i hope i can do my best in everything although i know somethings is out of my strength...this makes my mood become moody sometimes...just like what being right now, getting lost in direction, nervous....
I found out myself is trying to escape from things that i do not familiar with...
Wednesday, July 22, 2009
Hi, Japanese....
Actually thought of taking a foreign language in university long long time ago, but then my original timetable made me headache every semester and I cant even have sufficient time for other subjects...Maybe it's only an excuse and I didn't take any effort to achieve it....
It's a circumstances that I will register to this Japanese course. Planned to take French before as my dream country is France. But then heard that it's quite hard for it and just give up...haha...Never think of taking Japanese before because i do not like to watch Japanese drama and think of this language is just so common (i feel sorry i got such kind of thinking,haha ).
My first Japanese Drama was "One Litre Tears" , in UKM...Followed by " Code Blue", "Bloody Monday" and 《亡者之声》...and I cant even believe I will be taking Japanese in future!!!
AR wishes to take Japanese long time ago, and this semester she finally takes it successfully....I am able to take and learn Japanese, the one that I should thanks for is AR. She was so excited and went through UKM Smpweb several times in a day...She was so enthusiasm to help me registering the Japanese when there's 3 places last night!!! If is not her, I think I wont be there for Japanese....
Today is actually a nice day to sleep till afternoon, because it's a raining day...freezing!!! But since I already register, I should go and see what's going on!! I late for the class today after searching the bs4 for so long....I went into bs4 and found out it's Arabic Class...What a shock and I don't know whom should I ask...Then I tried my luck by going to bt4...Luckily my instinct was correct....hehe
It's Nezu Sensee...She is a nice teacher...She really an ideal Japanese woman...She is so cute when she want to explain the term in the language we know but she cant really can speak English properly....We were like 鸡同鸭讲 in the class....But she just smile and try her best to understand us....
Most of them in the class already know Hiragana...I really very blur and don't know how to see the words...feel nervous also as I don't know anyone in the class and don't know how to spell the words out when asked by Sensee...
Luckily, CP is going to take Japanese with me,then we can go class together... It's an unfortunately that SV & YP cant take it with us....but dont worry, we can teach you after we learn it...hehe..
Sunday, July 19, 2009
无奈的星期。。。
最终还是摆脱不了Aini, 还是得去上她的课。当她知道我们这一群人的所作所为时,或许会针对我们几个,但逼于无奈,还是得硬着头皮去。。。现在也只能希望她不要那么记仇,唉!!就让我们平平安安 ,顺顺利利过完这个学期吧!!
至于IB,真的也觉得很无奈。。。明明是拿到好老师,但却基于我们属于少数人,而被迫换班!!而且还是由Radzuan来把我们随便放进某一班!!结果,我们几个被丢进Noreha的班,小佩子和小黎姿却被分到第五班。。。事情到了这个地步,已经没有挽回的余地了,不能上诉,只能找朋友倾诉。。。
Noreha 的教学方式我自认是听不进去也听不懂 (上回已有了Macro的经验了 ),现在也不晓得还能怎样?!听说她的功课也是超多的,这个学期只有茫忙盲了。。。惨 :-(
还有那个Killer(教Perakaunan Sektor Awam),更加恐怖。。。竟然是个提倡无书主义者!他以为我们每个都像他一样博学多才,不用读书就能博古通今!!哎呀,我们是有自知之明的,自问肚里的墨水不够!!或许是因为这个科目太时事化了,根本就没有一本书是可以完全囊括它的范围,也可能作者会以自己的角度出发,以致我们会被他限于一个框框内,但也不至于叫我们不要去看书吧。。。没有任何 Input, 你哪来的Output哦??!!只是空讲,我们学生的记忆也是有限的,那到时我们拿什么去考试?!
最后还是Audit老师好商量,同意让大伙儿换时间,大家不用在星期五晚上上课了,真好!!原来他是一个Auditor(应该吧?!)。那晚他应该是放工后直接来教书的吧!看到他双眼布满血丝,一脸疲惫的样子,就感觉这份工的薪水不是酱容易拿的。。。压力大,工作量也大,就连睡眠时间也要被牺牲掉!!!!他让我觉得,到了社会还要面对各式各样的人,各种尔虞我诈,各种不择手段,各种勾心斗角,各种人情冷暖,感觉真的有点活受罪!!人,一定会遇到这些遭遇吗??有没有人逃过这些劫?!看了《巾帼枭雄》,有一句话很值得去省思:人生有多少个十年?做人一定要痛快。。。但是所谓的痛快,要以行动去证明与履行,还真的有点难(是很难!)!!要我一辈子做工作的奴隶,我会很不甘心!!但无可否认,我还是害怕改变。。。自己的命运最终还是在自己手上,如何走下去,还是由你这个主人来决定!!是时候去想想自己要的未来是怎样的了!!
大薇突然告诉我小琳子和小慧子临时决定不去马六甲了!!本来一场高高兴兴的旅游,从原本的15 个人,到现在的八个人,感觉有点扫兴!!为什么大家就不能拨出一点时间让大家聚一聚,明明约好了,却可以临时反悔,很没有责任感!!现在的情况是只有几个人知道,倘若告诉了其他人,相信人数又会再减少了!!到头来,就像是我们几个自己主办的旅游了。。。
人数不会再增加了,只会再减少(希望这不会发生)!!无论如何,这次的游记还是得继续下去,希望不要再出现任何变数了!!
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
Unlucky Start !!!
(This sentences was written on the first week of university re-open!!)
And today (second week), it proves!!! Haiz...
Firstly is SP class...that En.Jumaat really a killer!! In my opinion, he is an overbearing lecturer!! He thought he knows all the things and did not want to listen to others!! Why got such a lecturer in this UKM & in this world???!! It's true that there's a lots of technical problems occurred when registering this SP course, we did went to the class last week, just there's nobody in the class, therefore we left... But he was very stubborn and insisted that he only saw a student in the class...Another thing upset me was that he as a lecturer even dare to curse a student who did not attend his class!!! what a suck manner!!! why a lecturer can act like that??!!! after that he even cursed us so that we all get C & D in SP since he will be doing the exam paper!! I really think his ethic has a big problem!!!
Secondly is Audit class...suddenly we being informed that our lecturer is a part-time lecturer and the class will be held on Friday night!!! Oh my goodness, why is Friday night?!! I still can accept if it's one of the weekday night!!! I think most of them agree with me!! But we cant do anything right now,just have to wait for the coming class...hopefully the lecturer will change the time...if not, all of us cant go home during this semester :-
Thirdly is SMPK 2...haiz, really very unlucky this semester, get Aini set again!! How come?? Try to change to other set, but then afraid if fail to do so, Aini will have prejudice to us, then we all die straight away!!!! Hence, the last choice is that we have to drop this course and pray that Dr. Zaher can manually register our names into his set!!! If not, no choice, will have to take it next sem!!!
Conclusion is that I feel that I really have a bad luck for this sem...May God Bless me...
Saturday, July 4, 2009
SienzZz。。。
Just back from grandma's house on Monday, then accompany Boon went to Inti College on Wednesday. Friday is the day 7 of grandma,hence went to grandma's house to pray for her!! Today is Saturday, have to appreciate the time left...
A new semester is coming, hope everything will be going well...
Thursday, June 18, 2009
Fearfulness Friday
In this wonderful morning, we went to Dr. Azimon’s room to take our nasi lemak. She’s really a kind person, likes to sermonize us…she did talk a lots of how to become a good man in future and some of the unpleasant matters or incidents that impressed her, which she met recently (or years ago)!! She’s such has a heart of gold, easily affected by others’ actions…
Today, she gave an astonishing statement to SV and me: are we twins??!! What an incredible thought?! Actually I don’t think we have much similarities between us, despite of our hair style, wearing spectacles, same height (SV insists that she’s higher 1cm than me, haiz!!), mix around always and that’s all!!! But don’t know why, do have some people keep saying we look alike…Moreover, some even claimed that I looked younger than SV…CP and others suppose I should happy for I am looking younger than my actual age, but I don’t really think so…Just don’t know why, feeling weird about it…
I agree that I really wish if I have any elder siblings. Maybe I am that kinds of scared of taking responsibilities, have to make all the decisions myself!! But, I always think that I am quite a lucky one, having three brothers that mature enough (except for the last one sometimes, and hopefully he will be as the others in the future…) that do “guide” me along my path till now…
After taking our breakfast, three of us, CP, SV and me went to The Mines. I think we are really fearfulness…exam is just around the corner, but we still have mood to go shopping!! Law has lots of things need to be memorized, ethic haven’t start reading and Kepimpinan is just so so…However, we had made a promise before we go--- won’t spend money on any unnecessary things and surprisingly, we made it, hahaha!!!
Finally, we got to watch the “Museum AT the Night 2” today…it’s a funny story especially the two Cappunci monkeys…Actually we planned this when going to Midvalley few weeks ago, but due to Saturday, we can’t wait for the long queue. After that, we were busy with all the assignments. Then it drags us till now.
One thing that i felt sorry for SV was that I scorched the red bean!!! I have a short memory and it's really gets on my nerves sometimes...I am figuring a way to improve it...